Say it ain't so

Two sleeps 'til Waverton. Starting this entry early today to give me a fighting chance of actually getting something done in terms of packing. 'Temptation' (the quiz show) is still playing on the TV and my dog is chowing down on one of the last meals that I will serve her.

Everyone was a bit distracted today. We started the day talking about Ian's hair and then the hot chocolate reinforcements arrived and Roland sent around an email speculating about how the last lot went so quickly (company joke - big R is constantly hovering around that machine). From which followed a company discussion (about 30 emails) about gluhwein and a Red Apple anthem and a sly dig at Clint's soccer-playing ability.

Anyway, I finished two and a half chapters, so I was motoring along at speed in between feeling pensive about a smudge of clouds in my field of vision and Paul's funny walk. I like a man with flaws, as long as they're not as passive as Colin's insipidness (endured another interminable train + car ride this evening - one more to go). Is it too much to ask that he speak to me rather than at the ground? That when he attempts to make eye contact he doesn't flutter his eyelashes? (i.e. is it possible he stop acting like a 13yo girl with a crush?).

I may be cruel but I'm a straight talker. It's selfish, really, because it's for my own peace of mind but I'm hardly going to give it up for someone I don't like. (I also want to take this opportunity to make the distinction between 'like', 'don't like' and 'dislike', which I use from time to time. 'Like' is an active, positive emotion, 'dislike' is an active, negative emotion and 'don't' denotes absence of either. So I don't dislike Colin, I just don't like him).

Dilemma coming up - housewarming. I want to invite people from work. But I don't want to invite everyone. I certainly don't want to invite Colin simply because he hasn't even attempted to make an effort socially (I mean, he's unsure about the names of people he's worked with for 6 weeks!).

So anyway, the invitation list gets a bit political. I'm sure primary and multimedia won't mind if I don't invite them and I want to invite Penny and Paul but not Nick and Lizzie (even though I like them - just not as much as the others). Naomi is having a girl's poker night next Friday so maybe I'll run it by the girls. Sigh. Why is this hard? I must have a heart if I care so much. Say it ain't so.